Where Is My Inspiration
Filed Under life lessons | Posted on November 23, 2008
It’s just my mood but I cannot for the life of me get out of it. What the heck is she talking about you may ask????
I’m not inspired to live my life the way I normally would since the death of my mother. Things are going pretty well for me now, especially with my home business and investments. Financially, I have probably never been in a better position.
It is inside though that has really changed. Now I really know what it means when people say that money does not buy happiness. When you feel empty it does not go away magically….that is for sure. I just didn’t realize that this was going to be such a prolonged empty feeling.
I have always been so passionate about my business, career, even working out but I am having one hell of a time trying to focus on any one of the things I normally love to do. I need my inspiration back along with the feeling of passion that I miss. How do I get it back though…that is what I want to know.
Really, I try not to focus on the loss I feel and rather am trying to move on and move in some different directions. I have major changes that will be occuring in my life and normally I would be so thrilled but my heart isn’t in it. The worst part is my heart isn’t into anything right now. Maybe it’s just my mood like I said before.
I really did not realize what a blow it would be to lose my mom since she was always going to be there for me…..or so it seemed. On top of the many things she did for our family while she was alive, she didn’t stop giving when she passed. That was always her intention.
I think this is the first time I have ever written a post like this. Just babbling about the way I feel. I promise this won’t be a regular thing but it feels better to let people know why I have not been myself…or will be the passionate person I have always been for quite awhile. I’ll give myself some time.
I miss you and I miss me.
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